Just when I was not feeling so strongly about needing a child....just when I was okay with waiting on God's timing. Just when I thought I had finished that battle. Just trying to do something nice for a friend.
But it hurt, and it's okay I know, I felt like this before Angel got married and I didn't even have a date in site. I felt like i was being left behind, left out, and that because of that I was going to lose Angel to Jen....and I'm always just behind. I'm so selfish, it hurts me but I know and I'm God's. I was wrong then, I'm wrong now.
I just needed to get that out.